Confused.

So far I've had a pretty good week, albeit a tad unusual. Aside from music practise, everything that I had been meaning to do just sorted itself out without me going to great lengths (kudos to the external force that made this happen), and I counted myself extremely lucky when it lasted.

Work experience has been finally sorted out a day after the form was due and although completing it at my local primary school was probably my last resort, I am still really rapt that I get to shed some positive light on a place that at one stage was awful to me, along with becoming reacquainted with some of my old teachers. I think that in a way, I was meant to do my work experience here so as to connect with my old self which has been long since left behind. In addition to this, working with preps will certainly be a challenge.

Furthermore, on the topic of reacquainting, I recently bumped into my Year Six teacher and friend, Mrs Chamberlin. She is undoubtedly a role model unto herself and someone I'd like to compare myself to when I turn 72 years old. I had actually been wanting to contact her for some time but had lost her email address, so it was very much a coincidence when I saw her and her husband, along with her daughter-in-law and baby granddaughter. I'm so pleased that she's finally a Grandma (as she had wanted to be one for as long as I could remember), and I wholeheartedly believe that little Sophie should count herself lucky for having such an energetic, fun, intelligent and compassionate Grandma - much better than my own Grandma I must admit :)

However, despite these fortunate occurrences, there are still some nicks in the cane which I haven't exactly been able to smooth out. I feel as if my passions for music and creative writing are being usurped by the constant demand for homework and time on the internet. There is absolutely no way I want these passions to subdue or even diminish, and I really don't want them to detract from my "me-time", which is usually best spent on the internet. I've essentially been using homework as an excuse not to write or do music, and as a result, I think my inner child wants to grow up and move out. I am thinking that the reason why I avoid music and creative writing is because now that I'm writing essays aplenty and completing VCE Units 1 and 2 Music Solo Performance, I tend to associate them with work rather than relaxation. Hell, I'll work it out eventually, just give me a few weeks and before you know it, I'll be complaining about something else.

For now, I shall continue to be excited about being able to see Elliot, Roman and Robin in the school holidays and French Exchange, which is further down the track. For now, take care.

Bethany